13 days after moving out…

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On my first weekend back home, I felt so strange. It was almost as if home was not home anymore. I only came for two days and then I left again. It seemed like a temporary living situation. This is my second weekend home, so I don’t feel so strange coming back home, but the feeling of strangeness is still there. The night before move-in day, I cried and cried and cried. I had gone to a summer college program for a month in the east coast over summer and I didn’t shed a tear, but this time, leaving home seems more permanent.

I am grateful to have two wonderful roommates, and though it is very crowded in our dorm, we are making the most of the circumstances and I love them both. They are super sweet and caring and considerate.  I liked that we got a few days to settle in and get to know the people around us before classes officially started because it was during this time that I most initiated conversation with people I usually may not associate with, and I am very glad I did. I have met so many people in these past 13 days that it is unbelievably hard to remember each person’s name and associate each face with the correct name. Hopefully they all forgive me… and have patience with me. I will get it right eventually!

I have been trying to get to know my professors beyond the classroom, but I am also realizing how difficult it is to make the effort to go to office hours and go above and beyond the “minimum” criteria of getting work done. I am working hard to get to know my professors by meeting them outside of classes and attending classes and office hours. I don’t want to leave college knowing nothing about my professors apart from what is told within the confines of the classroom. I want a deeper, more intellectual understanding of my professors, what they do, how they do what they do, why they do what they do, and how/why anyone should care. I want to learn the insights that only professors can give and I want to learn the story behind every great professor and eventually, I want to learn/work under these great professors and get a hands-on feel for what they do/how they do experiments/research, etc.

College life has given me the opportunity to get out of my comfort zone and socialize more than I am accustomed to do, and though this freedom is somewhat overwhelming, it is also very exciting. I am able to meet friends at any time of the day all throughout the day, and I can really get to know and understand some of these people and forge deep relationships with all my friends, roommates, hall mates, professors, etc. I have so much to learn and so many new people to meet and so much to do in my college years. It excites me and it also scares me, but I am ready for whatever comes my way. I am ready for the entire college experience. The good, the bad, the opportunities.. everything! And I don’t want to miss a thing!